The Minutiae
It is in the minutiae that we find the flow of history.
It is in the minutiae that we find the flow of history.
Resident of Ghandruk, Nepal and Manager of Hill Top Lodge
Question: What makes you who you are?
Answer: My genetics, upbringing, experiences, values, beliefs, interests, and relationships have all contributed to who I am today. So to my personality, identity, and perspective.
Question: Are you the same you, that you were yesterday or last year?
Answer: I think I am the same. Last year I was single and now I am married and I’m a father of my new born son. But now my desires, values, priorities and responsibilities have changed a lot.
Question: What (if anything) would make you not you?
Answer: I think whatever I do, I do it with my heart. Because I strongly believe the Law of Karma – it states that whatever thoughts or energy you put out, you get back – good or bad.
By the way, I was in the Bahrain Defence Force (BDF) a few years back. I served as a royal guard in different royal palaces in Bahrain. After serving 1.5 years as a soldier I started having anxiety, a sleeping disorder, and depression too. And with a heavy heart I had to resign from my military career for my own health. And it was hard for me to shift my military career after coming back to Nepal. But my parents supported me and I am running my family hotel in my old village Ghandruk.
Question: What makes your mental health better now?
Answer: I think what has helped me the most is my wake-up and sleeping routine. When I was in the military I had to do lots of night shifts and in the day time I couldn’t sleep at all and when I slept in the daytime I couldn’t sleep at night. Now I sleep on time and wake up on time.
When I had lots of sleepless days and nights, I used to think a lot, I used to worry a lot and at the same moment the pandemic came and my girlfriend whom I dreamed of marrying was dating another guy behind my back. All of that happened to me at the same time.
In my opinion now I think good sleep is one of the main factors for my better mental health.
Question: When all of those things were happening to you, not sleeping, the pandemic, your girlfriend, did you feel like yourself?
Answer: During that period of my life I didn’t feel like myself at all because I was so depressed, couldn’t sleep properly for like one and half years. And due to my job in Palace Security, we Nepalese soldiers were not allowed to go outside our camp, just like quarantine. So I felt like a prisoner. For the first time in my life I had suicidal thoughts that time. But now I think of it as an unforgettable experience in my life which I want to share with those who are depressed and fighting with their anxieties that Time heals everything. And I also want to state that we have to talk and spread awareness about mental health as much as our physical health.